Last week was my 30th birthday and prior to my birthday I was filled with a mix of emotions. The day before my birthday ended with me sending out a mass text to my closes friends that read :
PSA please refrain from all #dirty30, #30 or anything else that’s not #twentyFine if I post anything on social medial tomorrow. I’m not ready to accept the fact I’ll be 30 (sad face emoji) so please don’t mention it to the world. Thank you (smiley face emoji).
Talk about struggling with accepting the fact. Anyway, a week later and I’m doing much better 🙂 30 isn’t so bad after all lol. No, but for real I am ready for the blessings my 30s will bring as well as the challenges. I went though a lot in my 20s, from losing my grandfather, watching my mother become homeless after losing her house, struggling financially, to having a health scare. But with all the challenges I faced in my 20s, I had many blessings, such as graduating from undergrad. I remember it like yesterday, checking my final grade to the one summer class I was taking, Spanish. I didn’t think I was going to pass. When I saw that passing grade, I stared crying. I remember I called my mom to tell her and was crying on the phone lol. In my 20s I graduated from graduate school, developed a spiritual relationship with Christ, witnessed the birth of my niece, moved to a new state, bought my first “non-bucket” car, and traveled out of the country. My 20s were truly a period of growth and I feel I am equipped to take on the challenges my 30s will bring, but above all I am ready to embrace all the blessings! But before closing this chapter, here are a few things I would tell my 20 something self as I reflect.
No matter how hard life gets remember the Lord is with you. It may seem like you can’t catch a break, but remember your blessings. Don’t harp on the negatives. Not only is the Lord with you, your grandfather is always watching down on you. Stop stressing because everything will work out.
Love is a beautiful thing but remember love first begins internally. Baby girl learn to love yourself. Not just say it, but truly embody it, live it, internalize it.
Work on forgiveness. When people let you down forgive them. Don’t be so quick to cut ties. Sometimes your high expectations are unrealistic, remember no one is perfect. Remember your loved ones are trying their best. 1 Corinthians 13:4-8, your favorite scripture, remember to always practice it.
Dance the night away. Dance like everyone is watching because sleep is for the dead. Get up, get dressed and go to that party! I’m telling you now, the hangover bounce back is not the same in your later years, so enjoy it now lol.
Be patient with your mother. Oweeee chil pray ABOUT IT! Lol. But seriously I know you can get frustrated at times, but know your mother is doing her best. She has been through a lot in her life and these experiences have shaped her, remember this. Stop being so hard on her. Remember earlier, those unrealistic expectations. She is not your grandfather and don’t expect her to be. Except and love her for who she is and tell her you love her more often.
Please stop giving your heart to men who are not worthy and STOP trying to fix them, you are not responsible for fighting their battles. You are NOT their therapist. I\’m just going to leave this one here lol. It speaks for itself.
Goodbye 20s, hello 30s! <3
“Clouds in my shroud in my vision grow clearly. Can’t see ahead if I’m fine when I leave me. What is the sayin’ when you should let go? What is so impossible…”
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\”I’m fine like that, fine like that, fine
I never be losin’, I’ve won every time…\”
Stay blessed. Remember, you are loved ❤️